There are times like today..when somethings just take their time and sink in....and as it did sink in...this sense of being abandoned in the middle of an empty road... i felt anger rising...anger that had been suppressed....stamped upon each time i felt it rise...and its anger in its truest and purest form...anger where i want to break something...where i want to stand on top of a building or the highest point of the city and scream..where i want to do bad things....anger that stems from ignoring my inner feelings for a long time...anger thats caused by injustice...a feeling of indifference...bordering on cruelty....frustration-of trying to make people understand...frustration wondering why the hell am i even trying to make them understand..frustration on my own emotional ups and downs...frustration on my increased emotional dependence...frustration that i cant handle this issue on my own..frustration and anger- a super combo... i want to hit..run...run..run and run...away from my problems..away from my past and present...run towards my future...run blindfolded...run stonehearted..run towards my messaih...but the run seems long...and i am scared that i might just collapse somewhere half way through in this run...in this run for love..in this run for justice...in this run for peace.. and i am tired.. and i need to vent.
Life is an endless loop of emotions and at the end of the day...or life...u realise that all that u did was trying to get out of this loop only to be caught in a new loop....there is no way out...anger.frustration..helplessness...happiness..joy..ecstacy....peace....and the circle continues...and i want to put an end to it all...i want a way out of this endless loop...i want to stop going in circles...i want to put an end to all the anger...to all the frustration...I want justice..justice without vengeance...justice without fights...justice thats rightfully mine...
4 comments:
Running away will never give peace nor will fighting and arguing.. Peace is a state of mind, it is within u when u don expect, don expect ppl to react the way u want, don expect that u will get peace by running.. Just give, give more love than u ever did, Accept it and stay calm for all the good things that u have.. When ever u are that angry that u cant control or if u think ur emotions are getting out of control have a nice nap.. Showing anger on any1 will not help.. Listen to some good music, relax, sleep, read a book, go out for a walk, play with ur dog, think abt a good moment in ur life, the biggest joke u ever heard or something that keeps u away from the anger. I am sure ur anger is out of anger from others but remember u don have control over others emotions but u can always decrease it.. U being angry will only agravate it..
On a funny note.. I really wish u run so much.. Do exercise paddu :)
:) :) U r a Monkey Saint Rakesh :)) Love u :)
Yes - Anger is one letter short of Danger...... Think about it!
Belief can move mountains... and Self belief can move them single handedly... Trust your beliefs and things will be as you wanted to be much sooner...!
Optimism is driven from the optimists who have faith in your belief...
Don't belie our faith...!
You shall overcome - until then... curb your anger and have patience.
Yes... I know (in all sincerity) its easier said than done!
Heyyyy! Dharmavarapu Vara Lakshmi Padma Priya.
With such a long name and with sumone like Raki around, u shd naturally b endowed with awesum levels of control n confidence. But ...
Ok, dis shd defenitely b sumthing like those I-TOLD-U-SO types. So let me restrict myself 2 saying dat anger first damages the person showing it.
I swear dat this is a fact and while dis is permanent, the variable is how it wl affect de person against whom it is directed.
Nd running away nvr did help neone. Frm wht little I know, u hv fought bigger battles re. So this will too will pass . Chill ra nanna.
But yes, with belief, patience, an optimistic frame of mind and control, YES, as Venky said, YOU SHALL OVERCOME.
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