There are times like today..when somethings just take their time and sink in....and as it did sink in...this sense of being abandoned in the middle of an empty road... i felt anger rising...anger that had been suppressed....stamped upon each time i felt it rise...and its anger in its truest and purest form...anger where i want to break something...where i want to stand on top of a building or the highest point of the city and scream..where i want to do bad things....anger that stems from ignoring my inner feelings for a long time...anger thats caused by injustice...a feeling of indifference...bordering on cruelty....frustration-of trying to make people understand...frustration wondering why the hell am i even trying to make them understand..frustration on my own emotional ups and downs...frustration on my increased emotional dependence...frustration that i cant handle this issue on my own..frustration and anger- a super combo... i want to hit..run...run..run and run...away from my problems..away from my past and present...run towards my future...run blindfolded...run stonehearted..run towards my messaih...but the run seems long...and i am scared that i might just collapse somewhere half way through in this run...in this run for love..in this run for justice...in this run for peace.. and i am tired.. and i need to vent.
Life is an endless loop of emotions and at the end of the day...or life...u realise that all that u did was trying to get out of this loop only to be caught in a new loop....there is no way out...anger.frustration..helplessness...happiness..joy..ecstacy....peace....and the circle continues...and i want to put an end to it all...i want a way out of this endless loop...i want to stop going in circles...i want to put an end to all the anger...to all the frustration...I want justice..justice without vengeance...justice without fights...justice thats rightfully mine...
